During a conversation with Gwyneth Paltrow on The goop Podcast on Tuesday the reality star revealed her marriages to Damon Thomas and Kris Humphries didn't feel as real as her union with Kanye. "I feel, honestly, my last marriage was my first real (one). The first one, I just don't know what was happening. The second one, I felt like I wanted to be married so badly because all my friends were at that place and that's where I should have been and I didn't accept that that just wasn't where I was."